Janelle Ann Kidman was the actress’s only living parent. Her father, Dr. Antony Kidman, died in September 2014. “So life is, whew,” she told GQ. “It’s definitely a journey. And it hits you as you get older.” Kidman admitted that it’s been a difficult last few months, calling it “a wake up at 3 a.m. crying and gasping kind of thing.”

Oscar winner Nicole Kidman recently mourned the death of her mother Janelle, who passed away in September at age 84. Her father Anthony died in 2014.