Janelle Ann Kidman was the actress’s only living parent. Her father, Dr. Antony Kidman, died in September 2014. “So life is, whew,” she told GQ. “It’s definitely a journey. And it hits you as you get older.” Kidman admitted that it’s been a difficult last few months, calling it “a wake up at 3 a.m. crying and gasping kind of thing.”

Nicole Kidman is continuing to cope with the loss of her parents. In a new cover story interview with GQ published on Monday, Nov. 18, the Perfect Couple actress, 57, shared how she’s been doing since the death of her mother,